A day doesn't go by that I am not verbally abused. I am either lazy and thoughtless or overthink things and don't know how to relax. Once it week it gets really bad. She screams, throws things and breaks them; has hit me on the odd occasion. I have a great job, do all the housework and never deprive her of anything. She has major issues with her parents. Every time she talks to her mother she gets so worked up I wear it.

Sex is off the table. I'm either a rapist for trying to initiate anything, or don't love her if I don't try. I'm at the point where I feel suicide or winning Lotto are my only options.